Baking up love.

Connor loves cupcakes/cake so I made some cupcakes and some special ones for him.

Including a star cupcake that is suppose to say "<3 U"
(aka LOVE YOU)



and a mini cake showing that I love him so =D



mmm yummy yummy veganess. I just had to show you all them!

oh and If you haven't seen my tweets (@MatthewLush) my mom came home from her vacation and kicked Corey out of the house. There was used Condoms everywhere, blood on the walls, thousands of dollars of things broken, stolen or knocked over. There was also sticky floors from alcohol, bottles of beer everywhere and the pretty wood floors all scratched up from what looks like people scraping broken bottles into them.

My little brother taught my nephew to say ""leave me alone cunt go f*ck somebody"... so my nephew said it to my sister and boy did he get it. My nephew also tried to kill a bug and said "mother f*cker wont die." My family is pissed at Corey. He needs to grow up, he's 18! I was kicked out of the house right after I turned 17 and graduated early. My mom didn't support me being gay at the time. She just didn't understand anything. As time went on she's learned to love me for who I am. It helped me grow up fast, and become more independant then the rest of my brothers and sister.

Anyway I'll keep you updated on anything that happens, but I hope wherever you are Corey that you're safe and know how upset you made mommy.

xoxo Matthew

The brother I'm embarassed to say I have.

So my mom is enjoying her vacation in Aruba from her timeshare she got years ago when she refinanced the house. This was back when the market was good... She has only used it like three times, and hasn't had a vacation in a couple of years.

My lower than life little brother Corey decides since she's away he can throw a party at her house.

Every little thing in her house has taken working two jobs 6am-4pm then 5pm-midnight. She worked her ass off to support us as kids.

But moving on to Coreys friends who tore open the locked hot tub cover, trashed the house, broke the tiles in her table, knocked the lampost in the front over, and ruined a couple statues. Plus I know what trash his friends are, and I know they stole a ton of sh!t.



Also Corey got the shit beat out of him by his ex girlfriend at warped tour.

He's had that one coming.

Okay I'm done venting.

I just wish my mom had a better life, and didn't have to deal with this.

Why am I so tall?

So my mom and dad are both 5'4 and im 6'0... my mom said it could of been the milkman... but she was kidding. =] I guess I'm just lucky to be tall.

It's weird cause I tower over my friends:



and after seeing that picture I miss my extremely long bangs, and am growing them out again!

Oh girl I'll be fierce when I move back to Cali in December when my lease is up.

Connor might need more time, so I'm kinda puzzled about what to do... but hopefully everything turns out.

I do love him, and will wait forever for him to come to me if I'm in Cali.

I'm also looking for roommates. Since it's cheaper that way!

Love you all so much!

xoxo Matthew


PS- Me and Yeliz are such lesbians.

Happy 10 month anniversary me and Connor!

Come on seriously, who wouldn't want to be with this:



I can't believe all the rumors going around saying we broke up o_o It's like drama that comes out of thin air! I'm here to tell you that we've been together for 10 months now, and have had our ups and downs. But as of right now we are both happy and in love! We haven't fought about anything in awhile. Fighting sometimes brings lovers closer, cause they come to a conclusion to a problem, and realize that they don't know what they'd do without the other person! Now I'm going to write something to make Connor smile:


Dear Connor,

Hey babe! Looks like we made it 10 months and are heading for eternity!!! You make me so very happy and have given me something to wake up to. The simple thought that you are mine fills my heart with joy and makes my blood pump faster <3 Your smile creates everlasting happiness in a boy once lost and confused. Without you I'd fall to pieces and crumble. I love when you snuggle up next to me while we're watching movies, or get that adorable serious face when you're trying to concentrate on a game. I just want to hold you (even though your body does radiate a bjillion degrees) for hours and never let you go. I can't wait till you meet my mom and family in New York. She's going to love you! She knows how much I care about you and how crazy I must of been to move here to be with you. We're all going a little crazy, but I can honestly say it was completely worth it cause now I have you.

If I had one wish, you would be my boo
Promise to love you, trust me I'll trust you

xoxo your Matthew






I also want to thank Rachel for putting me on her cake:


and Matthew Lush underwear is $15 today instead of $25 at matthewlush.bigcartel.com

and everything from MatthewLush.com is on sale and selling quick! Limited time offer to get YOU SMOKING IS GIVING US BOTH CANCER tee in any color of your choice!

Have a great one everyone.

Love you Connor!!!!


PS- SCISSOR AWAY!