I might have to shave my head!

Okay so what started out as two OVER bleachings of my hair turned my blue hair to baby blue then to greyish blue mess. Then the red dye made it fire hydrant red:



Which was pretty amazing, but for some reason it was pink toned to me. I was not happy with the style so I had Derek cut it for me. He honestly did a pretty amazing job for his first time LOL. But after it was cut it looked fierce. When I got home I decided I wanted it a deep dark red like my mom use to have. I've always wanted to try it and I know it would put a smile on her face! So thinking the brown and the red dye would turn into a deep dark red was a bad idea. It then turned purple and a wonderful shade of grey. It was disgusting mess, and the brown somehow stripped the red out and did its own thing...which made me very unhappy. I then took a 20 min walk to Walgreens and got some dye I would be sure it would conquer the rest of my hair and make it look like one solid color. Which is did and it looks fine, but boy is my hair donezo. It's like disintegrating! I'm over exaggerating but still, it feels unhealthy =[ If my hair starts falling out I'm shaving it all off!




Oh and Karli said she would fly me to San Diego the day after my bday and save the day! Woot woot Karli to the rescue!!! So I might stay there for a couple and go to six flags with her. Then one of my Los Angeles friends will come down and get me and I'll spend the rest of the week with all my old friends I miss so much! I think this may really happen, and I'm getting so excited!!!

I'll keep you postedddddd!

Remember to read my Myspace bulletins if you want the sleepover to happen!!

Won't you be my sweetheart?

We could share a storybook romance. LOL sorry Mariah Carey obsessed lately.

Look at my sister rockin my new Hot Topic tee!!! She got it from the Smithaven mall on Long Island, New York! So if you're anywhere near there or any other Hot Topic's that carry it, pick it up!




and yes she is 100% blood related, same mother and father. Most people don't even know I even had a sister. She's 27 and very pretty. I even have a nephew =D He's getting so big! Look what my sister did with pink temp spray to his hair:



oh and I think shes taking a picture of my nephew in the tee, so I'll update this if she does =D My nephews name is Tyler. He's a little terror =X But I love him!

oh and I have a new YouTube video if you didn't see. I dance to my bands song at the end. loves it!!!



oh and I might be going to Chicago tomorrow to see Nikki and Devin? idk its like barely planned out but I hope it happens. Derek to the rescue! Since Connor can't go and I don't have car insurance cause I can't afford it. Damn this economy! I keep running out of everything =[ things just add up and up and up. It's starting to piss me off! Stressssssssss. But hopefully that'll change with my new cat. It's going to make my life a bit brighter!!! OMG HOLD ON I HAVE TO SHOW U WHAT I GOT!!!




Ashley C got me stuff from my birthday wishlist already! She got me rainbow mice for my kitten! They have catnip in them, so my kitten is going to tear them apart o_o thats why they come in a huge cardboard cheese wedge with a ton of them! LOL I have to write her a letter thanking her and for the bath and body works lotion and body wash! omg do I love them! Connor gave me a massage with the Jasmine Vanilla, and it was truely Sensual ;) You're the best Ashley! And I have to mail Rachel and thank her for getting me a flower kit for my aerogarden (which I don't have yet LOL) I was like imagine if everyone got me stuff for it, but no one gets me it LOL. That'd be sad. I'd end up getting it sooner or later...(But it would take forever!) Since I'm going to be spoiling my cat! And flowers make me happy. She also got me this poster I wanted that says "Love Kills Slowly" by Ed Hardy. I LOVE that saying. idk why but I want to buy everything at Ed Hardy that says that, and I DON'T EVEN LIKE SKULLS! lol. I would take a picture of it, but I need a frame for it and any others I'll be getting O_O I want to try and spuce up my boring apartment with a row of posters, each having some kind of special meaning to me. That's why I chose Love Kills Slowly, The Notebook, Wall-e, Ghandi, Einstein, Marilyn Monroe, and Pamela Anderson! I still don't know what I'm doing for my birthday, but I hope I figure it out soon.

Thank you everyone who got my shirt! I was thinking about making a myspace album with pics of everyone wearing the tee in it, what do you think?

LOVE YOU ALL! You're honestly the reason behind my happiness.



PS- If you didn't see it already, I'm in a two page spread in a chinese magazine! DAYUMMM I couldn't of dont this without you all!

find more about it on my Myspace blog:

MALL OF AMERICA GOES ALL OUT!!!

Derek (D.Graves) of Mall Of America Hot Topic went all out in the store! My tshirt is now available in all 59 hot topics listed below!!!

Go pick yours up NOW! GO TOMORROW!!! Or buy online sometime next week. We are unsure of a set date because they have to get it set up. But it should be at every single of the 59 Hot Topics listed in my past blog!

I will be commenting every single person back until July 1st (my birthday) who takes a picture of themselves in my Hot Topic tee and defaults it. So if you leave me a dozen comments in a day, expect a dozen back!!!

Make sure you buy this tshirt, so I can continue my relationship with Hot Topic!!!

Check this out!!!








go support me and get it! I'm nothing without you!

Make me proud!!!

I f*cking love you all.

Till death xoxo

HotTopic this weekend is a good idea!

List of ALL Hot Topic stores with my "MATTHEW LUSH LOVES ME" tee:




It is also available this weekend at HotTopic.com

If your Hot Topic is on the list, please call to make sure they have them in stock before going. They should all be stocked by this weekend! Taking longer than I expected, but it's so worth the wait.

Every single Myspace comment I get of you wearing my HotTopic tee, I will comment back! So if you comment me ten times that day, you will get ten replies back! This will be up until my birthday July 1st! Please comment me everyday with the tee in your default, I DARE YOU!

So stock up on tons of comments!!!

The sooner you get the tee, the more we can chitchat back and forth ♥

Wonder who the first commenter will be =X

I'm so putting them on my Myspace top.

Why? Because I love them!

If you're reading this on Myspace, make sure you check out my actual blog at MatthewLush.blogspot.com

Have a great day everyone!!!

My **** pierced and my pussy!

I made a new YouTube video about getting my **** pierced:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ss5WRR0T6HM

Incase you didn't figure it out, it stands for back. hehe.

I want all of you to tell your friends to add me so we can reach our goal =D w00t w00t! Just take a few seconds and post a bulletin. Piece of cake. Kinda like the vegan rainbow cake I had a couple weeks ago!

I just got word about my pussy! It's a couple weeks old now! My older brother said I should be able to get it before my birthday!!! I'm so excited about my 21st birthday! I added a whole bunch of cat stuff to my amazon wishlist: MatthewLush.com/wishlist and I hope someone gets me some, cause I'm not sure I could even afford all this stuff right now. Plus I'd rather starve then have my cat starve!!! I will be mailing everyone who sends me a gift back! Hand written unique letters =D so be sure you leave a note with a reply address! (especially if you buy off Amazon, most the time It doesnt tell me where it came from) O_O but if you buy something off my wishlist, it gets taken off the wishlist, so you don't have to worry about buying the same thing someone did. There is a lot of the same things though, like I tried adding Bath & Body Works gift card and there wasnt any, so I went crazy on the orange ginger stuff. Seriously I love aromatherapy that works! That smell drives me wild.

Speaking of smells, my new studio apartment (that looks like a depressing hospital with white...everything) was discounted because of the awful smoker that use to live here! I've tried all my sprays and stuff, and it still smells like tobacco! It's like its caked on! Wait I should add something to my wishlist designed for it. Yay! I found something to get rid of the tobacco, then the pet odor my cat might bring O_O I kinda wanna add one of these starter packs for my cat to see what it likes. Why can't all stores have Amazon! grrr!!! My apartment smells like my grandma, and it's depressing. I miss her. Having an emo moment right now, so bare with me =/ And the new flower I got is dead =[ WHY IS IT SO HARD TO KEEP PLANTS LIVING INSIDE APARTMENTS! I SWEAR IF SOMEONE GETS ME THE AEROGARDEN AND THOSE FLOWERS DIE I WILL LOSE IT. Plus I hate fake flowers. Theres just something about real flowers that make me smile. I'm more likely to go back to a restaurant that has fresh cut flowers on the table then one that doesn't. Idk why but thats why I love Pizza Luce! I could so go for some pizza right now.

Oh btw I'm drugged off coffee right now, thanks to Stin and his care package!



I think he 'gets me' more than most of you reading this. He knows the few things that make me so happy. The main thing is being Coffee! Boy does he know how to hook a brother up! He gets me the best coffee I've ever had, and I can't wait to try the French Blend he sent! Rock and Roll blend is my new favorite, cause it contains like three times as much caffeine <3 and I'm always running out of sweetener, so he's always helping me refill my stash =D And I got CANDYYYYYYYYYYYYYY!!! yummy yummy organic chocolate! Such a treat / getaway from everyday life. And gotta brush my teeth so I don't get cavities! How'd he know my toothbrush was worn out =X I needed a new one like last month, haha. And I always forget to get supplements. Since I'm not eating well due to me having no money from this sh!thole economy, I need to make sure I'm still living. Especially in an apartment like this where I feel unwelcomed and dead. It's like I'm in a huge white tomb. An old tomb that use to have a body of a smoker O_O woooo graphic. It's the worst on hot days when I come into my apartment and its like warm smokey air. idfk. whatever I guess. Life goes onnnnnn.

I need to re-record my new song. The EP is coming together nicely. (Hard To Take will NOT be on it) But you will love the songs I'm coming out with. Not to mention the cover song I'm going to do! It's going to be epic!

Can you guess which song it is!?


PS- MOVING DELAYED SOME SHIPMENTS, SO PLEASE ALLOW A LITTLE EXTRA TIME ON YOUR ORDERS. THANKS SO MUCH FOR UNDERSTANDING!

I'm sorry.

I havent been live or posting anything lately. I just moved into a white studio apartment, and it's pretty dull. I added some stuff to my amazon wishlist in hopes to make it look less depressing and hospital-like.

MatthewLush.com/wishlist

also my 21st birthday is coming up July 1st, so don't forget to send me a card!

Love you all!